Time to Play the Fool

Religion isn’t my thing. But spirituality has never steered me wrong. When I think of a higher power, I imagine an all encompassing thing, comprised of everything and nothing at the same time. The Source from which all exists. I simply refer to it as the Universe.

While astrology is quickly becoming a vital tool to understand myself and what is happening in my life, tarot and oracle cards have been my main tool to help me connect with the Universe. I pull one most days and I write down the phrases that hit me the hardest in that particular moment.

On Sunday, March 30th, as Neptune made its first foray into Aries since the 1870s, I pulled a card, wanting to understand what perhaps this new transit may mean for me.

The Fool appeared.

“Start of a Phase”

“Leap of Faith”

“Openness to Life”

These particular highlights come from Annie Lionnet’s “The Tarot Directory.” It was published in 2002 and my first book about tarot. I was gifted it around 2005 and to this day, it remains my favorite for its simplicity.

She explains:

“Old habits have become outdated and no longer foster our growth…to deny the call to adventure can result in a stifling of our creativity and spirit.”

“the challenge to meet these [unexpected opportunities] is stronger than your fear of the unknown…you feel compelled to follow your intuition…you are willing to abandon your need for security and trust that whatever you experience will be worthwhile and meaningful.”

The Fool from the Rider Waite Tarot deck

So what does this mean?

Right now is a time for change. It is a time to do something different than I’ve always done. It’s time to leave logic and reason behind. It’s time to step into that which I cannot explain, yet I know is the exact step I need to take.

To everyone else, it’s going to appear as if I’m stepping off a cliff into nothingness.

To me, I may free fall, I may face-plant, or I may fly. I’m not really sure which one it’s going to be, but the Universe is telling me this is what I need to do.

Easier said than done.

I hate feeling the Fool. I hate when others see me falling apart, especially after they’ve given me warnings and un-followed advice. The times when they were right, when they predicted exactly what would happen and had every right to say ‘I told you so.’ Foolish. I felt so foolish.

So, to actually step off that cliff, despite knowing that it’s exactly what I need, is terrifying. The logic and reason within me is screaming to back up, far far away. It’s reminding me that there is no data to support stepping off that cliff. That there is no reason to go anywhere near it. But, if I just rework what I have already, it’ll be enough to get me to the next place, metaphorical or physical.

Still, the cliff beckons.

It’s the only way forward. It’s the only way that I’ll level up, jump timelines, meet my dreams, whatever the phrase may be.

I have no clue what’s next, but the only way I’ll know is if I play the Fool. Intentionally.